My husband died of a cardiac arrythmia in April 2008. This blog is the record of my work to return to wholeness.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
It still has the power to shock me
Driving down the road the other day, thinking about nothing in particular, it suddenly hit me that T was dead. "Wow", I thought, "How could that be? How can a person be there one day, and then suddenly gone the next? How can I be living this life of a widow, without him?" There was even body language involved -- I noticed myself blinking my eyes, shaking my head, snorting a little. No tears, no big wave of sadness, just ... disbelief.